Wednesday the 14th

Today Wednesday the 14th of March I faced two of the most provoking situations in my Life. It's the first Time in my LIFE to shout at a Mikrobus driver in the street. He really nerved me so much.
It was 10:00 AM in the morning & I was on my way to attend the mass. There was a heavy traffic jam so that all the cars where parking in the street & there was no place for them to go & I heard this loud peeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep from this Microbus driver.I couldn’t stop myself telling him: Hey why all that peeeeeeeeeeep
He also shouted at me: Hey this is a street you have a footpath to go there…for seconds I thought he is right but I was so quickly & looked if there is something called footpath in that damn street & didn’t see any single place to go..
I replied then: Do you see that called footpath? Or do you want me to have wings to fly over the street. Can't you wait till we go & anyway the cars are standing & they don’t move.The comedy thing was that I heard the voice of a totally veiled woman that calmed me & told me its better to keep silent dear being silent is not weakness….first I thought yea I know that being silent is not weakness but I was really frustrated from this Driver & the loud peeeeep in the street that made me deaf & also I don’t like this attitude. They use the peeeep now like eating & drinking not the right use. All the way to church I was so angry & wanted to shout so loudly at him & really was so happy that he kept waiting on the street cause of the traffic jam..i was telling myself good for you cause you deserve that.If you say that I was aggressive I will tell you yes I was so aggressive like never before in my whole LIFE & even If he was wrong but I was also more wrong then HIM. First cause I saw that there was a footpath on the other side.Secondly its not a polite manner to shout to an old Man on the street in front of all the people its totally impolite.Thirdly I didn’t think about this man & didn’t put myself in his shoes. Its so suffocating to wait in a car while there is a traffic jam & not to be able to go & I came & ruined him with my shouting..At least I will be able to continue my way cause I walk but he will stay a lot so I'm regretting that I was so aggressive.
While I'm writing this now I remembered this woman & felt it was GOD's voice to me…lately I began to talk too much & felt that talking is telling hey I'm here cant you see me. Being kind doesn’t mean to take my RIGHTS.I maybe felt somehow weak & suddenly felt that I wanna talk & shout.
But this woman (Gods voice) told me being silent is not weakness at all. Maybe she wanted to tell me hey you Christian girl don’t you believe in being silent or what. Being silent is not weakness girl. Anyway she was so tender to me that she really could helped me to keep silent if I kept walking with her for 5 minutes.

The second story was in the metro station:Yea I know you will lough at me & my stories but I just had a bad day.
I was like any Human being buying the Tickets in the row & there is an enter gate & also the other gate to leave…but as here in EGYPT people love KOSA they do anything & don’t even concentrate well & they just keep going without looking.
While I was turning to leave the Tickets window I saw him behind my back I aggressively told him there is two gates one to go the other to leave .He was really shocked…don’t know actually why. Maybe because I'm a girl & I'm also shouting at a boy?A girl is not allowed to shout at a man even if I was right I don’t know & don’t understand why…didn’t he do something wrong…doesn’t they deserve to be shouted at if they was wrong? Why this bad TREATMENT I felt it so much today..Woman's or girls are bad treated cause they are just feminine that what I saw. When I follow the rules & telling him that its wrong (yea I know I was for the second Time today so aggressive but even if I told him that in a gentle way he would think she's flirting or wanting to have a small talk. They don’t think right their minds are fixed only on …poor them.